I used to listen to music just so I can listen to the songs that I like. I used to listen just for entertainment. However, it’s not like that anymore.
Ever since the beginning of college, I have realized how dependent I’ve become of it. Every time I walk down the street, go to school, need to calm myself, want to cry, feel like dying, have no one, have so much emotions or feelings bottled up inside me, or almost anytime I can listen to music, I listen to it.
When I feel extremely anxious or depressed or triggered, I listen to songs. But it’s not enough. It’s a distraction, not an answer or solution.
The volume gets louder and louder the more triggered or anxious or depressed I am. It’s my only escape.